The 13th Sign

This movie is so terrible.. that is actually worth watching. I am a fan of bad horror. And this just made my top 10 list! Wowsers. Stinker, but it is one of those movies that you have to watch right to the end!

I am also a fan of British and Australian/New Zealand Horror. It is normally pretty gritty and realistic. They don't spend tonnes of money on special effects, rather on the script and hiring the best everything. Here are a few of my favourites:

Shawn of the Dead (British and my all time fav)
28 Days Later (British)
The Descent (British)
Dog Soldiers (British)
The Ugly (New Zealand)
Village of the Damned 1960 (British)
The Haunting (1963) (British)

Check out these links to find out more about British/Australian and New Zealand Horror

http://www.britishhorrorfilms.co.uk/index2.shtml
http://horror.about.com/od/foreignhorrormovies/a/australia.htm

I done in so many ways....

I'm done fasting... now on to mostly raw vegan diet. I'm sorry raw food I can't give up my coffee... I just can't...
I'm done pining and whining... I did nothing wrong, his loss
I'm almost done working on my apartment... ok that's bit of a lie, I still have some painting to do, minimal, touch up and baseboards, doors, then I'm done with that. Balcony needs a few more things, but other than art, this place is rock and or rolling. It's only taken since September to finish it all, funny what happens when your time is pre-occupied. Going into hiding has it's advantages, that and my OCD ;)
I'm done hiding... look out, outside world...
I'm almost done killing some zombies, who killed some ex's... for this time around anyway
Now that I am done.. I am re-starting my engines... again... look out world!!!

Hello OCD

How many times is it possible to re-organize my cupboards? I know I have mild OCD and need to distract myself, but this may actually be getting ridiculous....

Day one of the purge

Today is day one of my fast and purge. I have come to terms with the fact that I need to remove all negative aspects of my life. That includes people.

~I have realized you can't force someone to love you. So I won't.
~People are going to disappoint you. No matter what expectations you put on them.
~I already removed one particular negative person from my life today. I have a few more to go. All these people do is suck the life out of me.
~Something must be really wrong with a person who can walk away from a Goddess. That person needs to fix their wiring. I deserve the world and if you can't give it to me. I don't want you.

the rule of thumb???

The rule of thumb (WTF does that mean anyway) is that each day you wake up and it's a bit easier, you feel a bit better. In fact each day I am feeling a bit worse. Being sad sucks.

The other day, someone said it's just my frame of mind. Dismissing it, as if, I was being melodramatic or acting like a spoiled kid. I got mad and then was called stubborn. Stubborn?


Then I realized, yes, I am stubborn. I come by it honestly. I am my Father's daughter. My Dad, is someone I love and respect more than anyone on this earth. His family is the most important thing on the face of the earth to him and he would do anything for them. As a matter of a fact he has. This man has sacrificed so many things for us, I don't even know where to begin. I am, just like him. I put everyone first, me second. That is why I am having such a hard time dealing right now. It is also why I am being so stubborn.

I refuse to give up, or admit defeat. I always have to try every option possible. Exhaust all possibilities... all of them. I keep thinking there is hope, I get my hopes dashed, but yet, I refuse to give up. The problem is, this isn't making feeling better.

My Father has also told me, that I am a strong and beautiful woman who deserves the universe at her feet. I also brushed it off before, well... because he is my father. I use to think, he's my father, he has to tell me that. You know what, he says it because he means it. I do deserve the universe at my feet and damn it.. I'm going to get it!

FYI... this is the rule of thumb according to wikipedia (how can I live without you) and... I think my head may have exploded!!!!

Daily Buddhist Wisdom

I needed to hear this today. It sums up quite a lot.

Do not go after the past,
Nor lose yourself in the future.
For the past no longer exists,
And the future is not yet here.
By looking deeply at things just as they are,
In this moment, here and now,
The seeker lives calmly and freely.
You should be attentive today,
For waiting until tomorrow is too late.
Death can come and take us by surprise--
How can we gainsay it?
The one who knows
How to live attentively
Night and day
Is the one who knows
The best way to be independent.

-Bhaddekaratta Sutra

If I could make time go backwards right now this is what I would do...

If we buy some of this stuff do you think they will finally stop showing the commercials!!

Ok, I need to rant, vent, bytch a little... There are several commercials that are REALLY starting to wear thin on my nerves.... so, here I go.

Debbie Myers Green Bags... um... who leaves veggies in their fridge for that long to need a bag to let them keep the veggies in the fridge 10 times longer. The whole point of fresh fruits and veggies is to eat them when they are um... fresh...... My suggestion, either only buy what you need and are going to actually eat.. OR.. OR.. buy frozen stuff.... geesh... carrots in the fridge for 26 days... who does that.

You know how Mary Hart's voice was giving people Epileptic Seizures.... Billy Mays does that for me!!! Every time I hear his nasally voice I cringe.. I honestly can't change the channel fast enough. My fav is the Hercules hooks, the families that are using it look sooooo happy. It holds 150lbs apparently. I am so tempted to buy it put in the wall and see how many of my friends it will hold up... You feel like you need to torture me. Strap me to a chair, and make me watch all of his commercials for hours on end... ya... Compared to him, Richard Simmons is a delight.

There is so much more crap I can talk about, it is all on this website http://www.asseenontv.com/. And I am so delighted, they still have the Bedazzler. Sarrah... SARRAH, you are so getting that for me, for my birthday... we could have HOURs of fun bedazzling everything :)

I wonder if they have that vacuum gadget you use to cut hair... remember that from the 80's... was it called to the Flobo or something like that... off to look for it! Oh god... I was actually kidding... But... they still make it... http://www.asseenontv.com/prod-pages/Flowbee.html.

Look away Carolina... look ... a... way....