Last night, Sarrah and I were watching The Shining. Twice during really intense moments of the movie, my computer came on. Yes, it came on... by itself. It was in sleep mode and the only way it could come out of sleep mode is if you click the mouse or touch a key on the keyboard. I even tested out this theory to show Sarrah. Neither of this could be done accidently by either of us because we were sitting on the other side of the room when it happened. Spooooooky!
And today is the first day of the 30 day raw challenge!!! I am going to do 100% raw for the entire month. The options are to do 80-100% as it would be hard for some to do 100%. I have done it before and was 80% for several months. Somewhere around October I fell off the wagon. Now I need to get back on for so many reasons. I can't even tell you have fabulous I felt when I was mostly raw. I slept better, lost weight, had more energy.... it goes on!
This is just one of the things I need to get back on track with. My writing, my health and my weight! But the biggest thing is me. I keep getting lost in other people and keep forgetting about me. Sarrah and Viki both gave me a slap yesterday and reminded me of this. We need to keep reminding each other that we need to be selfish and stop feeling guilty for taking care of ourselves. I was reminded that I need to be more patient and less analytical. I try to dissect everything, even when it doesn't need to be. But my biggest thing right now, and no Sarrah it's not my OCD, is that I do need to be patient. I tend to go through life a few steps and sometimes miles ahead of the others, turning around and like a drill sergeant yelling at people to keep up. Everyone has their own pace.. and it's not the same as mine!
There is a bunch of us that are going through a lot of emotional crap right now, but we are here for each other. We need to help each other get through it. If you can't count on your best friends who can you count on. And it is funny how things go full circle. Several months ago, Anna was there for me when I separated from my Ex. She opened her doors and arms to me and let me stay with her till I got my shit together. The same is happening with my best friend Sarrah. She is with me now, trying to figure out her life. I told her I will do what ever she needs to help her.
Life continues to kick us in the ass, all we can do is give it a dirty look, rub our asses and continue on full speed ahead. The pain of it all sucks, but we aren't robots. We are however, strong, independent goddesses. We should never expect less, than to be treated like goddesses and we have to remind each other every single day of this.
I love all my girls and refuse to let any of them suffer unnecessarily! Sometimes our lives are like a really bad Sex in the City episode, but, like those episodes we always get a good laugh in the end.
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