I keep asking myself, is there something wrong with me? Right now, The Princess Bride is on. Every female I know LOVES, this movie. I can't stand it. First I don't find it funny. I should, it's meant to be. It's directed by Rob Reiner, who I like. I mean who doesn't love Meat Head. I love the actors in the movie. Second, I find it completely ridiculous. I mean, technically I should love this movie, but logically I HATE IT!
Yes I'm a horror, suspense, action movie fan. But I'm also a girl. I LOVED Sex and the City, that is all girly. I love every Audrey Hepburn movie or Marilyn Monroe movie ever made. I own Barefoot in the Park. So why don't I like The Princess Bride. That movie to me is like Jello and Tom Cruise. When ever I think of either I shudder, shake my head and go bbbwwwwaaa. I have a friend who can recite the book and the movie word for word. Like my friend Simon who can recite every Simpson's episode in character. Of course both Simon and the Simpson are funny to me. TPB is just tragic and not in a good way.
So is there something wrong with me? Or am I the normal one and something is wrong with all of you?
Spoken like a true crazy person!
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Friday, June 27, 2008
raw raw raw
Ok... so... I keep saying I am going back on a raw diet. i start but go back to cooked food. I love cooked food, but realize I can only eat it in moderation. Or if I do there has to be a very large salad to accompany it. So starting today... back on mostly raw. I have some cooked food I need to finish, as I refuse to waste food. But once it's gone, it's gone.
Why do you ask am I going back to it. Many reasons. I feel better, I lose weight very quickly and all my allergies go away. I've been fighting the lingering affects of Bronchitis, I feel bloated and saw myself in the mirror last night. I don't like what I see. I need to lose 20lbs. I know working out if part of it. But the raw diet is the biggest part!!! I am going to try to stick to more fresh raw. Fruits, raw nuts, greens, veggies. I find the less prep I have to do the more likely I will stick to it! The one thing I do need to make is the nut loaf. I eat that on salad all the time and to start sprouts again. I will be doing all that Sunday. It is the summer and the perfect time to get back on this.
No more excuses!!!
Raw! Raw! Raw!!!
Why do you ask am I going back to it. Many reasons. I feel better, I lose weight very quickly and all my allergies go away. I've been fighting the lingering affects of Bronchitis, I feel bloated and saw myself in the mirror last night. I don't like what I see. I need to lose 20lbs. I know working out if part of it. But the raw diet is the biggest part!!! I am going to try to stick to more fresh raw. Fruits, raw nuts, greens, veggies. I find the less prep I have to do the more likely I will stick to it! The one thing I do need to make is the nut loaf. I eat that on salad all the time and to start sprouts again. I will be doing all that Sunday. It is the summer and the perfect time to get back on this.
No more excuses!!!
Raw! Raw! Raw!!!
Monday, June 23, 2008
once... when they wrote about love..
once upon a time... men and women use to write love letters. hand written, carefully thought out, beautiful. no one man or woman has ever written me a love letter. i realized this the other night and it made me sad. i don't even recall even having someone write me a love note or even a love email... let alone a handwritten letter. thinking about it, I googled some famous love letters. my favourites are below:
--
My dearest,
When two souls, which have sought each other for,
however long in the throng, have finally found each other ...a union, fiery and pure as they themselves are... begins on earth and continues forever in heaven.
This union is love, true love, ... a religion, which deifies the loved one, whose life comes from devotion and passion, and for which the greatest sacrifices are the sweetest delights.
This is the love which you inspire in me... Your soul is made to love with the purity and passion of angels; but perhaps it can only love another angel, in which case I must tremble with apprehension.
Yours forever,
Victor Hugo (1821)
--
My beloved angel,
I am nearly mad about you, as much as one can be mad: I cannot bring together two ideas that you do not interpose yourself between them.
I can no longer think of anything but you. In spite of myself, my imagination carries me to you. I grasp you, I kiss you, I caress you, a thousand of the most amorous caresses take possession of me.
As for my heart, there you will always be - very much so. I have a delicious sense of you there. But my God, what is to become of me, if you have deprived me of my reason? This is a monomania which, this morning, terrifies me.
I rise up every moment saying to myself, "Come, I am going there!" Then I sit down again, moved by the sense of my obligations. There is a frightful conflict. This is not life. I have never before been like that. You have devoured everything.
I feel foolish and happy as soon as I think of you. I whirl round in a delicious dream in which in one instant I live a thousand years. What a horrible situation!
Overcome with love, feeling love in every pore, living only for love, and seeing oneself consumed by griefs, and caught in a thousand spiders' threads.
O, my darling Eva, you did not know it. I picked up your card. It is there before me, and I talk to you as if you were there. I see you, as I did yesterday, beautiful, astonishingly beautiful.
Yesterday, during the whole evening, I said to myself "she is mine!" Ah! The angels are not as happy in Paradise as I was yesterday!
Honore de Balzac, French writer, to Evelina Hanska, a Polish countess, June 1836.
--
Good morning, on July 7
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us -
I can live only wholly with you or not at all -
Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits -
Yes, unhappily it must be so -
You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never -
Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves.
And yet my life in V is now a wretched life -
Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men -
At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection?
My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once -
Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together -
Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell.
Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours
by Beethoven
--
My dearest,
When two souls, which have sought each other for,
however long in the throng, have finally found each other ...a union, fiery and pure as they themselves are... begins on earth and continues forever in heaven.
This union is love, true love, ... a religion, which deifies the loved one, whose life comes from devotion and passion, and for which the greatest sacrifices are the sweetest delights.
This is the love which you inspire in me... Your soul is made to love with the purity and passion of angels; but perhaps it can only love another angel, in which case I must tremble with apprehension.
Yours forever,
Victor Hugo (1821)
--
My beloved angel,
I am nearly mad about you, as much as one can be mad: I cannot bring together two ideas that you do not interpose yourself between them.
I can no longer think of anything but you. In spite of myself, my imagination carries me to you. I grasp you, I kiss you, I caress you, a thousand of the most amorous caresses take possession of me.
As for my heart, there you will always be - very much so. I have a delicious sense of you there. But my God, what is to become of me, if you have deprived me of my reason? This is a monomania which, this morning, terrifies me.
I rise up every moment saying to myself, "Come, I am going there!" Then I sit down again, moved by the sense of my obligations. There is a frightful conflict. This is not life. I have never before been like that. You have devoured everything.
I feel foolish and happy as soon as I think of you. I whirl round in a delicious dream in which in one instant I live a thousand years. What a horrible situation!
Overcome with love, feeling love in every pore, living only for love, and seeing oneself consumed by griefs, and caught in a thousand spiders' threads.
O, my darling Eva, you did not know it. I picked up your card. It is there before me, and I talk to you as if you were there. I see you, as I did yesterday, beautiful, astonishingly beautiful.
Yesterday, during the whole evening, I said to myself "she is mine!" Ah! The angels are not as happy in Paradise as I was yesterday!
Honore de Balzac, French writer, to Evelina Hanska, a Polish countess, June 1836.
--
Good morning, on July 7
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us -
I can live only wholly with you or not at all -
Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits -
Yes, unhappily it must be so -
You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never -
Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves.
And yet my life in V is now a wretched life -
Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men -
At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection?
My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once -
Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together -
Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell.
Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours
by Beethoven
Monday, June 16, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Monday, June 9, 2008
Sex and the city...
Today, Viki, Janis and I went to see Sex and the City. What a fabulous movie. It lived up to all my expectations. I can't say what happened as I don't want to ruin it for those who are going to see it, but all I can say is you won't be disappointed. The thing that happened when I watched it though, is I got all emotional, weepy, I wanted to cancel my date tonight and come home and cry. No drink the bottle of wine that is sitting on my counter and then cry.
SATC hit on so many things that was going on in these women's lives. The biggie. LOVE. I've been struggling with being single and in my 40's. Don't get me wrong. I'm loving it. But at the same point, am scared of it. I've finally discovered who I am, and loving me. I have finally come to understand what I want in life, what I don't want and what I won't stand for. I am open, liberal, fun, sexy, creative and fearless. I say fearless because I jump blindly into things (please don't confuse blindly with foolishly). I refuse to live my life with regrets. But what affected me with this movie is, I fully understand what each of these women are going through. I understand their heart ache, confusion, frustration, dreams, desires and most of all, faith in love. A faith I though I lost, but yesterday realized is such a strong part of me, I will never lose it. So why is being single scaring me so much? At the end of the day. I am afraid of growing old alone.
I know I have the best friends I will ever have in my life, I have my dogs and my family. That in itself should be enough, but is it? I want to have someone in my life who I fall asleep with at night and am snuggled up to in the morning when I wake up. I want someone in my life who gets me, doesn't want to change me and understand and supports my dreams. I want someone who will cherish me as much as I cherish them. But why, why is it so hard to find this in my life. Why is it that I am afraid that this person doesn't exist and even if they do, I will never find them. But you know what, at the end of the day, the only thing that matters... is that I like me! I have the best girlfriends on the face of the earth. That, is what SITC is really about. Your girlfriends. Men will come and go, but your girlfriends are forever!
I, have the best girlfriends on the face of the earth. I actually consider them sisters.
viki
janis
sarrah
anna
michelle
rebecca
Each different, each unique, each fabulous. We are the ones that count. We are the ones who will be there for each other at the end of the day. We can love, fuck, like, lust, hate all the men we want. But without each other, it means nothing.
You are all my strength and without you all, I am not sure how I would still be here.
oxoxxoxooxoxo
SATC hit on so many things that was going on in these women's lives. The biggie. LOVE. I've been struggling with being single and in my 40's. Don't get me wrong. I'm loving it. But at the same point, am scared of it. I've finally discovered who I am, and loving me. I have finally come to understand what I want in life, what I don't want and what I won't stand for. I am open, liberal, fun, sexy, creative and fearless. I say fearless because I jump blindly into things (please don't confuse blindly with foolishly). I refuse to live my life with regrets. But what affected me with this movie is, I fully understand what each of these women are going through. I understand their heart ache, confusion, frustration, dreams, desires and most of all, faith in love. A faith I though I lost, but yesterday realized is such a strong part of me, I will never lose it. So why is being single scaring me so much? At the end of the day. I am afraid of growing old alone.
I know I have the best friends I will ever have in my life, I have my dogs and my family. That in itself should be enough, but is it? I want to have someone in my life who I fall asleep with at night and am snuggled up to in the morning when I wake up. I want someone in my life who gets me, doesn't want to change me and understand and supports my dreams. I want someone who will cherish me as much as I cherish them. But why, why is it so hard to find this in my life. Why is it that I am afraid that this person doesn't exist and even if they do, I will never find them. But you know what, at the end of the day, the only thing that matters... is that I like me! I have the best girlfriends on the face of the earth. That, is what SITC is really about. Your girlfriends. Men will come and go, but your girlfriends are forever!
I, have the best girlfriends on the face of the earth. I actually consider them sisters.
viki
janis
sarrah
anna
michelle
rebecca
Each different, each unique, each fabulous. We are the ones that count. We are the ones who will be there for each other at the end of the day. We can love, fuck, like, lust, hate all the men we want. But without each other, it means nothing.
You are all my strength and without you all, I am not sure how I would still be here.
oxoxxoxooxoxo
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Is it..
actually possible... could it be.. is there finally a chance in hell....
could I be any more vague...
um actually I could.
and I just have a pang... I REALLY MISS SARRAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
could I be any more vague...
um actually I could.
and I just have a pang... I REALLY MISS SARRAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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